Go easy

Tonight is the first time I purposely went out with a laptop in tow to write. Ironically, I do not have any task that is due. It is past mid-year.

Back in January, all I had to think about was my submissions for graduate school, including a comprehensive examination required to earn my master’s degree. Tonight, though, I am out of home with a good friend. We decided to try Dunkin, just downtown, thinking this could inspire us to write more.

I did not bother to ask the staff here if they provide free internet access. I liked the idea of being disconnected online even if I am basically in the city. With my favorite music on, I feel very much okay here.

It has been a week since I turned in my final manuscript. Now, I have more time for leisure. Last week I finished two books. Last night I also went out with friends from work. It is crazy that I feel that time is an abundant commodity at my disposal these days.

I have to recognize that this won’t last long. Sometimes, perhaps before the year ends, I will leap again. But for now, this is my evening: calm and mine.

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I remember that I ought to write about the birthday cake I got from my workmates. The message says about going easy in this universe.

Some of my workmates know already that I tend to overthink things. And they got that on my cake to remind me that I am still young. That rushing might ruin the experience for me.

Sometimes listening to people you trust is helpful. Having workmates whom I consider sisters and brothers is the biggest blessing in my current job.

There are episodes in my life I question why some equally capable people settle for less. But I get it now: they are simply content at the time being. Going easy in life, treasuring connections is their priority.

Our being humans sure wants for more. But aren't young people supposed to enjoy life and its freebies? Can we pause and enjoy what is on our table for now? I want more, but I am savoring this donut right now.